Carmel or Tariyaki Sauce

December 11, 2008

“Create in Me a Clean Heart Oh God”

– King David

“Some may trust in _(insert your trust here)__, and some in _(and here)__,

but we trust in the name of the LORD our God”

-Psalms 20:7

“Oh when I look to the shape of my heart,
It’s separated only by scars
That cut in and cut out
Oh and leave me without
Oh a heart that functions at all. “

-Noah and the Whale

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It was 6:00 a.m. on a Saturday morning and I was fuming with anger at the irresponsible and childish individuals who have been renting out my 555 sq. ft. house here in Puyallup. I was inside a refrigerator with a rag and razor blade scrapping out what I can only guess was either carmel or teriyaki sauce or a mixture of both (i hope it was and not something else, but i wouldn’t be surprised). It was disgusting and infuriating to be doing this, cleaning up the mess someone else has made of something that was mine. Consider that, I did all this while listening to worship music but worship was nowhere to be found.

It was not fair.

My heart was in a dark place and I was mad. Pissed off. Beyond words.

I chose to linger in that place of hatred and seething resentment and I enjoyed it. It felt good and it felt right. And why not? I was owed this! I could feel this way, I get a pass right?

I was wronged.

I was wrong.

My heart was far from Jesus and it hurt. How could I find my way back to Him? Does He feel the same way toward me that I felt toward these people who had been so irresponsible and selfish.

How can His love be that big?

He works in ways that blow me away.

I was at church the following Sunday and my good friend who is one of the Pastors there was preaching on desperation. Wow can you believe that? I love the ways of God. He taught on the point of desperation that was displayed in Jyris needing his daughter healed and the Woman Jesus encountered who was bleeding for twelve years and was healed by the touch of His garment. The service was AMAZING and spoke right to my heart where I was hurting. The teaching, coupled with the worship and the awesome and I believe “Mystical” sacrament of Communion helped heal my heart. Jesus was glorified in the service and I went to Him broken and in desperation. I would like to share with you this song that is so on point about the condition of the heart.

Bruised

Don’t build the castle
At your centre
Oh the heart can’t love
What it can’t remember
Be willing to be hurt
Oh be willing to be bruised
‘Cos a heart that doesn’t love
Is a heart that isn’t used

Oh turn your love to life
Let your love shine through
In everything you do
Let your love shine through

Oh I thought I felt my heart beating
Well I thought I’d never know that feeling
Oh I thought I felt my heart beating
Well I thought I’d never know that feeling

Well my heart was like a cave
Now light shines in it
Oh to fall in love is brave
Oh my heart was like a stone
That barely moved
Oh my heart was like a magnet
Oh for hearts like yours

Oh turn your love to life
Let your love shine through
In everything you do
Let your love shine through

-Noah and the Whale

Its breath-taking, the power of Jesus. He proclaimed in His home town of Nazerath what His mission on this earth was all about and is still about today. Thank you Jesus.

Isaiah 61:1

1 The Spirit of the Sovereign LORD is on me,
because the LORD has anointed me
to preach good news to the poor.
He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted,
to proclaim freedom for the captives
and release from darkness for the prisoners…

As one of my favorite speakers, Steve Brown says… “You think about that. AMEN”

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Your Broken Heart

April 14, 2008

When Jesus returned to His hometown of Nazareth He went to the synagogue and proclaimed these words from Isaiah about His ministry:
“The Spirit of the Lord is on me. Because He has anointed me to preach good news to the poor. He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted to proclaim freedom for the prisoners and recovery of sight for the blind. And To release the oppressed.”
I want to focus on the fact that Christ has come to heal the Brokenhearted. He is assuming that we are all brokenhearted because you don’t get through this world with a whole heart. How do we let Christ heal our hearts?

Faith and Repentance

Romans 10:9 “That if you confess with your mouth Jesus is Lord and believe in you heart that God raised him from the dead you will be saved. For it is with your heart that you believe and are justified, and it is with your mouth that you confess and are saved.”

Did you hear that? Believe in your HEART. It is with your HEART that you believe. We must put our deep hearted faith in Christ and we will receive Salvation.
Once you give over your heart to Him He will work within it and begin to heal it. We must remember this is not a “Quick Fix” this doesn’t happen overnight, we receive Him and are forgiven but the wounds are still there, they slowly heal. Remember Jesus is binding them up; we are a work in progress.
As we draw closer to the heart of the Savior he sheds more and more light upon the areas in our heart that we have hidden in darkness. We must ask Him to reveal those places we keep hidden, those sinful things we hold dear like pain, guilt, abandonment, fear, addictions, anger, and hate. He wants to remove those and wants you to replace them with love for Him. It is easier to keep these things in the darkness than to let the love of Christ work and bring them to the forefront where we have to address the sins we carry.

The Three Obstacles to a Healing Heart

There are three obstacles that we are confronted with that thwart our path to a healed heart. The world tells us what will fill our empty hearts, a good job, sex, money, friends, drugs, and pride. Our flesh tells us that we are fine the way we are in fact those things the world is offering look good and they would help our wounded and empty heart. The Enemy hates our Heart because he sees the glare and reflection of Heaven’s glory in it, he wants to devour us and see our heats turned wicked.
It is usually one of those that we are fighting with almost daily, I know that I am, but the Lord is good and faithful to see us through, He has a plan for us to come to him and be healed.
Here are the lyrics to a Jars of Clay song:

My wings don’t sail me to the sky
On my own these wings won’t fly
Jesus told me so
Still I’m not so sure that I know
Can’t find no rest for my soul
Can’t find no rest on my own
Jesus told me so
Still I’m not so sure that I know
Man, the trouble is
We don’t know who we are instead
I’ll keep runnin’ the other way
My heart ain’t built to stay
My heart ain’t built to stay
And the world just ain’t that way
My heart ain’t built to stay
My heart ain’t built to stay
Jesus told me so

Jesus reminds us that our hearts are not build to stay here that they have a true home and that is in the Fathers glory where our hearts were forged.